Perfidy -Saturday, April 24, 2004 -3:05 am-
I am betrayed. By what, I do not know, by whom I can not name.
Today, I spoke to several more people, was processed through several more offices. Then the math was done. It is worse than I had imagined. I am in debt. Massively so. Instead of buying a house, I will spend 30 years working to pay off the debt I incurred before I even got started. I will have to make better than $10 an hour working a minimum of 40 hours a week to hold even. No vacation, no days off. Not to get ahead, not to pay things off, not to move forward, but simply to not make it worse. Twenty thousand dollars a year that get me nothing more than stasis.
I want to know how this happened. I did what I was supposed to do, what, in America, means you did your part and will be rewarded with a white picket fence and 2.4 kids. I stayed in school, I got good grades. I went to college. I stumbled there, but I tried to keep moving forward. I don't drink heavily, smoke, or do drugs. I don't gamble, cheat, or steal. Now I am told that all I have achieved is to disadvantage myself, to increase my coming poverty. I did what I was supposed to and am rewarded by a future without hope. I do not believe that if I work hard I will get ahead. I do not believe that I will do honest work for a living wage. I do not believe I will attain what my birthright alleged to promise. I do not believe that I have a future that is desirable. I want my American Dream. When did I say it could be sold to someone in India?
I want my American Dream...
writebacks...
tiggerbone wrote
not alone
I am right there with you. I owe about $60K in student loans. I have a degree but no prospects. I did everything right but it just does not matter. In the end, I only sought my degree as proof that my time in school had been towards something although I wonder more and more what that something was.
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